An Emotional Post

Wanted to blog about this topic quite a long time ago but kept telling myself it is not the right time yet. Guess now, it is not too late to do so. So many feelings to describe yet I am out of words... 

Looking back to my old days, I've learned to appreciate people, incidents that happened to me, and of course the loves that I received. Three years of degree life is short. Very short but as precious as it is worth to note down. I love the bunches of people who stay with me all these while. Meeting different people in different years is interesting. As if discovering new "thing" to explore. (Hahaha, pardon me for the improper word.) 

The first year, I was completely like a 乡下妹出省. I remembered during the three days orientation period, I had a very bad sore throat. I could not talk properly. Tried my very best to tune my voice to the most normal tone when introduced myself to people. I wondered if there were people thought that it was my actual voice. So rough! Hoping that my voice did not frighten them, LOL. As usual, went to Uni and back to my hostel after classes every day. Dull year... Talk about my close classmates. They are absolutely the LOVELIEST, HELPFUL, FRIENDLY ones that I ever met. We lunch, gossipped, had outings, worked together for assignments. Oya, we did have group study once, but most of the time we were gossiping. Hahahaha 假勤劳! Well, we do have conflicts sometimes yet, we managed to overcome it after all. Six members. None of us would be left out. 

I spent my second year in participated an event. An exhausted but memorable event ever. Till today, I am still proud of I had a bunch of good people in my team. Since the first day of composing proposal until the event's actual day. Not everyone get to experience the moment when you had to deal with midterms and assignments due date at the same time attended weekly meetings until midnight. Countless of sleepless nights. WORTH IT LAAA! Wanted to talk more about this but so many complicated feelings that I don't know to express. THE BEST OF THE BEST is how I would describe if I ask to. 

The last year is when I cherish the most because know that I'm gonna regret if I don't. Leaving the Uni indicates you would have less chances to spend time with buddies together again. Staying at different states is the point and time is another. Hoping that after 10 years, we are still there together chit chating about all the interesting and funny things happened in these three years. 

Counting down in another three more days to finish my daily study routine. Yes, I am soon to step into the outside world, like the REAL world. Where most of the people realize it is not a place that they desired at first. I always wonder in what sort of occasion that I would have when I, as an employee first enter into a company. Am I capable enough to solve problems that my superiors would throw to me? Am I well prepared to face every challenge? To answer these questions, I don't have a decisive positive answer. Commitments, to deal with people around, mentality, uncertainty, and all sort of challenges always play a role as the source of fears. I am worried, but I look forward to it. 

People have been telling me that how tough it is when you start working. I agree people change and learn new things through tough experiences. Staying in a comfort zone is tempting. You would rarely make mistakes with the current activities you doing. No stress, no failures, no disappointments. How wonderful the life is... But here comes a label tagged on you. "草莓族" is a very beautiful name to describe a person who could not work or survive under hardships. They are ignorance. Their problems often can be solved only when they ask for direct help but not advice or guidance. This name has the biggest lethality, at the same time it motivates me. 

I know it is gonna be difficult to work for people. I do have a dream. I have many things to achieve in my life. Before that, I am very clear that it is necessary to play a role in organizations. Despite to gain experiences, pieces of knowledge, or to be a better me.  To me, a positive thinking is what make me moving forward. 人总要吃饭，总要生活，不硬着头皮上，能吗?

致我最爱的朋友，一起努力吧!